You know why we’re scared?

Because we are scared of the unknown. We always want to make sure that we have a plan, an answer, a structure to follow. We cannot accept an event leading to an unknown future. Pero hindi yun ang riyalidad. Our plans are just pacifiers to help us pretend that we have a sense of control, even if we never would. Something would eventually come up — good or bad, that was not included to the future we had made up in our mind — and that’s life. The sooner we accept that God is in control, that we don’t need to have all the answers, that He’s already two steps ahead of us, the sooner we’ll feel relief from the pressures of life. So, calm your heart.



Disappointment is like an emotional cancer. Every time you hurt me, I make myself numb to the pain. In the process of protecting me, I accidentally kill parts of my love for you as well, until I am completely empty inside, but alive enough to feel the little love that’s left. 

That soft heartbeat that only reminds me the entirety of what I have lost.

That Time When US Legalized Same-Sex Marriage

July 26, 2015

This was the day that the US legalized same-sex marriage and it was beautiful day. It was touching to see something that a number of people were fighting for for years materialize. And of course, with the happiness and celebration, comes all the hate. And with all of the hate already present in this world, I want to be a little light that would shine for anybody who would read my words and as long as my words remain and could be read by the future earth inhabitants, that little light will never flicker.

1. If you hate gays and the only reason you can come up with is the Bible then you are probably looking for these:

Romans 1:27
In the same way the men also abandoned natural relations with women and were inflamed with lust for one another. Men committed shameful acts with other men, and received in themselves the due penalty for their error.

Leviticus 18:22
“‘Do not have sexual relations with a man as one does with a woman; that is detestable.

Deuteronomy 23:18
You must not bring the earnings of a female prostitute or of a male prostitute into the house of the LORD your God to pay any vow, because the LORD your God detests them both.

And if so, let me remind you (because you might just have forgotten) that the Bible also bans these things:
Leviticus 19:27 reads “You shall not round off the side-growth of your heads nor harm the edges of your beard.”

Leviticus 11:8 reads “You shall not eat of their flesh nor touch their carcasses; they are unclean to you.”

Leviticus 19:31 reads “Do not turn to mediums or spiritists; do not seek them out to be defiled by them. I am the Lord your God.”

Genesis 38:9-10: “Onan knew that the offspring would not be his; so when he went in to his brother’s wife, he wasted his seed on the ground in order not to give offspring to his brother. But what he did was displeasing in the sight of the Lord; so He took his life also.”

Leviticus 19:28 reads, “You shall not make any cuts in your body for the dead nor make any tattoo marks on yourselves: I am the Lord.”

Leviticus 19:19 reads, “You are to keep My statutes. You shall not breed together two kinds of your cattle; you shall not sow your field with two kinds of seed, nor wear a garment upon you of two kinds of material mixed together.”

Mark 10:8-9, you “are no longer two, but one flesh. What therefore God has joined together, let no man separate.”
Mark 10:11-12, “And He said to them, ‘Whoever divorces his wife and marries another woman commits adultery against her; and if she herself divorces her husband and marries another man, she is committing adultery.'”

Deuteronomy 23:1 reads “A man whose testicles are crushed or whose penis is cut off may never join the assembly of the Lord.”

Deuteronomy 23:2 reads, “No one of illegitimate birth shall enter the assembly of the Lord; none of his descendants, even to the tenth generation, shall enter the assembly of the Lord.”

Timothy 2:9 “Likewise, I want women to adorn themselves with proper clothing, modestly and discreetly, not with braided hair and gold or pearls or costly garments.”
Leviticus 11:10 reads, “But whatever is in the seas and in the rivers that does not have fins and scales among all the teeming life of the water, and among all the living creatures that are in the water, they are detestable things to you.”

Deuteronomy 25:11-12. “If two men, a man and his countryman, are struggling together, and the wife of one comes near to deliver her husband from the hand of the one who is striking him, and puts out her hand and seizes his genitals, then you shall cut off her hand; you shall not show pity.”

If you only do some of the teachings of the Bible because they are convenient for you, sorry your argument is invalid. Go to directly to Jail, do not pass Go, do not collect 200.

2. They spread Sexually Transmitted Infections

Yeah, and so does heterosexual sex. Proper education and prevention are the only ways to stop STI’s. Be faithful to your partner!
Think of another reason why you’re homophobic. Think!

3. They are abnormal/unnatural and an abomination

That, my friend, is the reason I am looking for from you. Because that proves that the problem does not lie with them being homosexuals but the problem you have with them lies within you. You see what you see and you hate what you hate because of what you perceive. Notice the “you” in these sentences?

Don’t site the bible, don’t think of new excuses and research facts. You don’t like it period. The last time I checked nobody told you to become one so I’m not sure why you are even bothering.  Let’s put it this way:

You are diabetic and I love cakes. Why are you hating on me just because you can’t eat cakes?
You are allergic to shellfish, are you going to protest in front of Bubba Gump?
You eat broccoli, I don’t. Does that mean we cannot eat on the same table?

The success of a working marriage and family doesn’t depend on gender or sexual orientation. It depends on two people making something work. The sanctity of marriage you are talking about has already been being violated years ago when one woman slept with another man, when one man hit a woman, when one man neglected his child, when one woman hit her child.

What I admire is two people, not even married, but lasting on for years and years growing old together and taking care of each other physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

What I admire is two people, bringing up a child without malice and hate, with an open mind and heart to see all sides to see what is good and to see what is love.

What I admire is two people who wants these things because they want them and not just because society thinks that’s what’s “normal”.

I will close this with my recent facebook status:

” I don’t usually comment to other people’s posts but in the spirit of another country’s liberation I would like to share to everyone my comment on one of my friends’ post:

‘To each his own’ ‘Freedom of expression’ that’s what LGBT represent, and though as their supporter, I also believe that these concepts apply to the other side of the spectrum so I don’t hate you or your post because you are just stating your beliefs and opinions just like us. All I know is that Religion separate us, Faith reunites us. And to anybody who’s also pro LGBT who will comment after me, swallow your hate comments because it’s not about gays or straight, believers or non believers, Christians or not. It’s all about love and love is universal and spreading hate comments is counterproductive. We don’t want their beliefs stuffed in our throats so let’s not stuff our beliefs in theirs. Let’s just all get along because we live in one earth and we all have one God and that’s what God taught me. God is love so love is omnipotent (can do anything), omnipresent (everywhere all at the same time) and omniscient (complete and unlimited) and #‎LoveWins‬ everytime. God bless us all”

Good Day!

LDR is Blind

Ang Long Distance Relationship pala ay maihahalintulad sa pagiging bulag. Wala kang makita. Kailangan mo lang magtiwala sa mga tao sa paligid mo, sa kung ano ang ibibigay nila sayo at saan ka nila dadalhin. Madalas mangangapa ka kapag hindi mo kabisado ang bagong teritoryo, pero pag gamay mo na, alam mo na ang bawat liko. Kailangan mo din na masanay sa routine dahil ito lang ang tangi mong macocontrol. Pag alam mo kung ano ang ie-expect, saan, paano, gaano at kailan, hindi ka mabibigla sa darating. Siyempre dahil bulag ka,  hindi maiiwasan na mabunggo ka sa pader o matalisod sa pinto. Magugulat ka sa biglang pag bigay sayo ng tubig at minsan kahit gaano kalakas ang pakiramdam mo, mapapasigaw ka ng pangalan dahil pakiramdam mo, nagiisa ka. Kaya sa isang LDR, importante na may tiwala ka at mapagkalatiwalaan mo ang pipiliin mong taong gagabay sayo.

Hindi ka lagi makakasigurado sa mga tao sa paligid mo, kaya kung dumating man yung panahon na dalhin ka nila sa kapahamakan, at least alam mo na na hindi sila mapagkalatiwalaan dahil binigo ka nila sa dun sa mga oras na wala kang nakikita.

May 28, 2015

12:10 PM

Nakaupo at nagsusunog ng oras. Mamaya pa gigising si baba para maglunch. Since napanis yung baon ko kahapon,  tinapay lang at biskwit ang nagtawid sakin ng pitong oras, masarap ang lunch ko today — KFC chicken at salad. May tinapay pa akong miryenda mamaya. 

Nahihiya naman kasi ako kumuha ng pagkain sa kitchen, kahit sabi nila na kumuha lang ako doon. Minsan kailangan ko talaga maligo ng kapal ng mukha e. 

Narealize ko na ang isa pang sikreto sa relationship namin ni The Boyfriend ay para kaming kawayan na sabay sa ihip ng bagyo. Nag aadjust kami sa sitwasyon kahit mahirap. Kung may magbabago ng schedule, mag aadjust yung Skype namin to the point na naka open lang siya kahit tulog na yung isa kasi may kailangan pang gawin yung isa. Natutunan kong sumabay sa agos habang may limitasyon. Kung may mga bagay na hindi maiiwasan tulad ng biglang yayaan, kain sa labas, etc. nakokontrol ko yung emosyon ko na tumingin muna sa kaloob-looban ko at isipin maigi kung tama ba na magalit ako agad sa sitwasyon na bago o pwede namang solusyunan?