They say that one’s intuition — especially women’s intuition — are almost always correct. If that is so, then this scares me. This lingering feeling is so scary I can’t even start — or finish — to imagine it happening. Today I saw a different form of him, much like a transforming Pokemon before my eyes. It was a little painful for me, not because of the shouting and the cursing, but because I felt that he was feeling “that” pain again that was supposed to be long forgotten. And it was my fault he got upset, I admit it. It was a lousy mistake to make. If that were me in his position I would have done the same — or probably much worse. You see, I made a big mistake of putting up posts on facebook that was related to our fight. That was dumb. I was feeling so angry yesterday that I wasn’t thinking straight. Or maybe I was thinking but I just didn’t care. That was dumber. I shouldn’t have hurt him that way and I regret hurting him. People always make this mistake of putting up quotes or reposting things that we know would affect someone we care about. I had promised myself not to do this ever again, but alas, I failed.
Not my brightest day I guess. I’m still working on how to be a better girlfriend and I guess we learn something new (old) everyday. The good news is..! We made up before sleeping. I wish we made out after that, but we were miles apart so the phone call would have to do. What I hate the most about fighting is that when one things starts everything starts piling up above the other that when you decide to resolve it, you have to remove each layer one by one. It’s just emotionally exhausting to get into a fight with somebody you love. You hate his stinking guts but then you love him with all your stinking heart. Ahhh crazy love.
But you know what they say..
“You’re ready to love when you’re ready to be that person who loves more than the other”