You know why we’re scared?

Because we are scared of the unknown. We always want to make sure that we have a plan, an answer, a structure to follow. We cannot accept an event leading to an unknown future. Pero hindi yun ang riyalidad. Our plans are just pacifiers to help us pretend that we have a sense of control, even if we never would. Something would eventually come up — good or bad, that was not included to the future we had made up in our mind — and that’s life. The sooner we accept that God is in control, that we don’t need to have all the answers, that He’s already two steps ahead of us, the sooner we’ll feel relief from the pressures of life. So, calm your heart.

Of Lazy Days

I’ve been staying at home for a while now, I’ve mastered the art of laziness.  My patient’s still in London and my office status is “On Call” so here I am, waiting for a call if they have an emergency shortage of Nurse. I have a straight PM duty for for nights before I finally tuck away the scrubs as I welcome my 20-Day Leave! Yipeeeeee!

To start off, I just bought Cobone coupons for Moroccan Bath, Massage, Herbal Body Wrap, Haircut, Hair color and lowlights and Hair Keratin, Shoulder Massage, Nail Polish, Facial and Eyebrow Threading. 

Oh yeah, I have a major pampering to kick off my annual leave. I cannot wait!

Also, I cannot wait because February 22 will be a memorable day for me. I’ll tell you more about that next time. :)

So, that’s what’s up with me here right now. Aside from all the things I’ve ranted to you about my new room, everything’s still afloat and I’ve made a few friends to keep my socialization level leveled every day. 

My schedule’s a mess by the way. I will make a calendar one of these days because I need to put my life back in perspective. Okay that’s probably exaggerated. Let’s just say that I want to see if I’m using my day to the fullest potential (I am not) and whether I’m neglecting my hobbies and other interests (I am).

During my free days, I’ve watched movies and finished watching series. I’ve recently given Doctor Who a chance and learned that it’s not my cup of tea and moved on with Sherlock. I love Sherlock in all its forms and I realized that this series is no exception, especially that they are sticking close to the book. I’m also smitten by Benedict Cumberbatch, so yeah, that’s happening now. 

Aside from all of these, there’s nothing major going on so far.

Oh yeah, I’m broke.

Not broke – broke, but broke.

I need to reevaluate my eating habits and probably try to START to save now. I need tickets to go home again and I’ve tucked away nada. So, that and my new thing which I’ll tell you and teach you soon when I get the hang of it. I know how much you love tutorials so I’d probably do that as well. As a clue, this new thing I have is really a grown-upy material and is related to buying and selling, highs and lows. You have an idea? I hope you do!

So there, I just need to manage my schedule then the blogging will start.

See you then!

Kabayan Bedspace for Rent

Ahh, the winds of change stirred again. Today, I shall share to you my experience when transferring flats or bedspaces here in Dubai.
As a refresher, I live in a big flat with my aunt and cousins so everything was heaven. I know the people around me, I have food if they cook, the kitchen is big that I can even bake bread, the living room is clean and huge and my bed area is comfortable. I can even work out in our room (I share with my aunt).
But alas, the day came when I had to spread my own wings and fly away from the nest. My aunt decided to go home in the Philippines for good and like a well planned change, the flat was not renewed for another year (long story short, there was a fire on the building ON MY BIRTHDAY and the management became strict with bachelors all crammed up in one room). So December came and I started looking for a new home. I decided to separate ways with them because I’m independent like that. I like to try living alone — which doesn’t bother me much being introverted and all that.
imageBoy, was it hard. There were a lot of vacancies actually, what was hard was looking a place with the perfect balance of cheap rent, proximity to my work pick-up location or even just the transportation, the size of the room, the number of people living in the flat, the cleanliness of the bathrooms, the size of kitchen and the availability of dining area and additional freebies if available. Yes I put them all in consideration. Being obsessive compulsive, I don’t like to live in a dump with nasty roommates.
I ended up with a list of forty five available flats, screened into around 15 (as the other ones are not replying to my inquiries and I don’t want to have business with those kind of people). I had to push my time around as I need to view them all and see for myself. I suggest you do the same because I swear to you, you CAN’T trust the photos. I even inconvenienced my work duty partner because I get late coming to work that I had to extend my work in the morning to make it up to her. It was exhausting. I travel in the morning then go to duty then travel again in the evening. I talk to them and use up all my cellphone load, get lost around and then rush to my work. And with all those efforts, I drop-in only for 5 minutes to look around and inquire and in the end, slash them off the list. I just keep telling myself that I know I will find a home in the end and everything will come to an end.
Alas, December 24, I transferred my things to my new home.
It was a new building, decent house fairly clean room. That’s when I first viewed it.

When I had actually transferred, my bubble burst.

To begin with, the room started to feel crammed when other boarders started coming in with their own cabinets and luggages and things. One of my roommates came from Mars and does not know the meaning of respect to fellow sleeping roommates. The bathroom and kitchen usage wasn’t a problem, I can use anytime I want, but the cleanliness was. I had to clean the entire bathroom on my third day just because I can’t stand the filth anymore AND I bought my own cleaning materials. YUP, Talk about martyrdom. I just told myself, well, I’m lucky God blessed me with extra money to spend so why not make the sacrifice. It was no big deal. The only problem was it was hard for them to maintain the cleanliness. The owners of the flat wasn’t too big on cleaning the kitchen as well so sometimes dirty plates and utensils are left behind attracting roaches. We have a LOT of roaches in this flat and we also have bedbugs now. We tried to tell them the problems we have but the owners were busy with their agency business so they get forgotten most of the time. Speaking of agency business, the house maids they employ from the Philippines stay in this flat as well so it’s noisy and overcrowded most of the time. Sleep is hard to come by when I have my night duty because not only the people inside the room are noisy, but the ones in the living room as well. Shouting around and banging doors. If I haven’t told you yet, this is the right time to tell you that I am sensitive to noise and I’m a light sleeper so what a fantastic combination.
A month had passed now and I had just posted a note on our door to please not slam the doors. The Bathroom will get a schedule of cleaning next time, when I get fed up with picking up hair of my nasty roommates.
I’m just really waiting for The Boyfriend to arrive so we can transfer to a new place. I’m getting to the end of my thread. I don’t want to snap.
To counter all those negative vibrations, I fixed up my space nice and pretty, because well, that’s what I do best. So here’s my little sanctuary in the middle of my crazy sad OFW life.
I hope you have a better experience looking for and living in your new home. :)


My room in the Philippines VS. My “room” in Dubai

We can do this!


Planting Flowers

September 11, 2015

It started with an idea. A seed of idea.Charot.
Here’s a short story of my plants’ short life.

I bought these in the Philippines not only because I wanted to have a pet but I can’t have one in Dubai, but also because I love everything plants and flowers.

They are from a Japanese shop same as Daiso for around 140 Pesos for 3 flowers — They are Pansies, Margaret and Carnation that comes in cute and durable plastic pots.



The first thing I did before planting them was to remove the paper labels inside because they will probably soak and rot and also I washed the pots clean so my babies err plants won’t get sick.

September 18, 2015

A week after I planted them, the beasts are still inside and taking their time.



September 22, 2015

They are out!

Meet Margaret and Carnation.
Pansy might take a while.



September 26, 2015

They are now growing into little plants, their true leaves and coming out. Probably best to transfer them to a bigger pot, but I have none at the moment.
Pansy didn’t make it.

October 2, 2015

Probably need to transfer, really. The stems are starting to bend, I’m not sure why. Probably because they are cramped in a tiny space, fighting for sunlight, or they are overwatered?
The starter soil was amazing by the way, it was light and the water pass through quickly while still retaining a considerable amount of water.



November 19, 2015
I found a bigger pot and carefully re-planted them. They are easy to extract, just a little wiggle and they will slide out. The starter soil will fall away as well with just a little shake, leaving you with the plant and the bare roots.
I’m not sure at this moment if they will live with all the trauma I had just caused.


December 6, 2015

They lived! I wanted to see them bloom but alas, I can’t. Change is coming.

I will have to transfer home and that’s what’s keeping me busy lately. I tried looking for a room with a balcony but I did not so I have to leave them.

Goodbye plants. I hope your next owners will take care of you until you blossom into beautiful flowers.

You can read my room hunting experience here,
Next time, I’ll have a successful pot of plants, I promise you that. For now, I need to look for a room that has a balcony. :)


Whole 30 Log

Day 1: Whole 30 Trial#2

Day 2: Steady day. Feels amazing to just grab pre-cut and prepared food in the fridge. Worth the time I used for prep day. Veggies still crisp in the box.

Day 3: I only bring fruits and nuts at work for my dinner, I need a new plan.

Same food. I don’t bore easily apparently. I need to eat more during dinner as I’ve noticed that I get hungry at night. Not good.

I’ve also run out of spinach and leeks. I will buy them tomorrow.

I’ve tried looking for Tamari, turns out they sell it here in an Organic Grocery, and it’s expensive!

Rocca Salad, Balsamic Vinaigrette and Ghee Chicken



Day 4:

I didn’t quite like the taste but I’m not sure if it’s because of the vinegar or the pepper. I will try again next time.
I also made a big batch of Chicken Wraps (See GoodCheapEats.com). I also failed. :( Turns out, scallions aren’t white onions. Silly me, they are Spring Onions! So they made my mix too onion-y. :( These are the Chicken Wraps, though they look decent, they don’t taste like the way I expect them to. And oh, I changed the mayonnaise to mashed potato just to bind them all. I am not comfortable doing homemade mayonnaise because I’m afraid of the raw egg. Excuse the picture, I was dead tired and still has a morning duty for tomorrow.

My taste buds feels funny today. I feel something bitter at the back of my tongue. I’m not sure it’s connected with anything but I’d just put it out there. Also, the temptations are getting stronger now. My evil self is trying to talk me out of the challenge. I need to stay strong and find foods I cannot fail, stat!

Chicken Traps!


Day 5:

I won’t lie to you, my 5th day makes me nauseated. I had to eat the “chicken wraps” I tried to replicate and I had learned that my throat refuses to eat raw cabbage. I tried. I really did. I just can’t down that much thick and raw cabbage, added to the fact that the fillings inside was a tasteless mound of things. The balsamic vinegar and olive oil did not help because it taste different. Could be the oil. Good thing was, I bought myself a cup of Pomegranates this morning and I still had Cashew nuts so I ate those instead.I had to save some for later though, in case I get hungry later in the evening. Thank God my stomach is shrinking because even a little food can satisfy me now.

Also, I got fed up with Salad. It won’t be long now before I get tired of spinach and egg.

Lessons I learned on Day 5:

  1. Research the ingredients well.
  2. Don’t substitute  (unless it’s bacon. Always sub with bacon)
  3. Taste. Taste. Taste!
  4. Don’t think of Fries or meaty spaghetti or cheesy pizza.
  5. On to pinterest to search for new recipes. FAST.

Damn it I’m going to lose this battle.

I take that back. My patient’s family gave me a baked goodie and I had the courage to not eat it. Granted it’s not my favorite treat, but still, I had the power over food now! Ha!

Day 6:

I woke up late today so I had no time to cook Spinach and Leeks. I just ate two boiled eggs and a banana on the way to work. My lunch was ghee fried chicken — I know, I know, and a small bowl of salad I bought in the grocery store. Satisfying lunch, but didn’t fuel me for long. I had forgotten to put nuts in my bag last night so I’ll just be having Kiwis as dinner for later.

Everything’s A-OK so far. I’m still looking for new recipes for salad because I’m going to be bored with it real soon. Thinking of adding avocadoes or orange to the mix. I’m not sure.

I was invited for a birthday tomorrow. I don’t know if I should go as I probable have nothing to eat there. I don’t  want to break my streak. :(

PM Update:

On  my way home, my friend asked me to come and eat out with her. I hesitated and explained to her that there are a lot of food that I’am not allowed to eat. I ended up eating with her. :) I ate all that I cannot eat in one night! I felt really bad and my conscience is mad at me. But then I asked myself, what is this challenge? I can do it anytime I want and restart, reset, repeat how many times I want. But this exact moment, a little diversion from my routine, a little blessing of companionship could not be replicated, so I forgave myself. Call it rationalization — coz it is.

I made a new rule for myself. Still eat healthy but friends come before food, always. :)


Baskin Robbins’ Chocolate Mousse Royal



Probably wise to ease in food slowly. I got a minor head buzz after eating rice!


It’s been a long time before I’ve written this entry, a whole month had already passed. So here’s a good and a bad news. Bad news is, surprise, surprise, I did not finish the Whole 30 program. There were lots of birthdays and occasions in the middle of the month and I just cannot continue with the strict diet. I tried to compromise and pick up healthy foods as much as I can, but alas, I failed the second trial.

The good news is, after just 10 days, I saw results! Not just me, but my friends as well. Personally, I feel much more energized compared to feeling sluggish before. My sleep was better and I feel like a newly cleaned machine, to be honest. It was hard for me to eat vegetables and protein each and everyday because I got fed up easily with the greens and the dressings I found online. But, even if I did not complete the whole program I lost weight! My jaw and chin was starting to show again (haha). And my uniform was loser — and I haven’t even exercised then! Just imagine if I found the time to exercise while on the program. The damage would have been life changing!

I promise to do this program again. Maybe the next time I’ll get past 20 days, It was a very hard challenge for food lovers like me, but the benefits are all worth the trouble. It has been a month and I just started eating rice and bread again. I almost never touch soft drinks anymore but I let sugar in again. Mostly just for my tea and coffee every once in a while. Soy also made it back with mayonnaise and pasta. I retained some of the routine food like the banana, almonds and coconut chips, the egg and spinach and I incorporate Rocca salad with my lunches to keep my rice to a minimum. It’s really finding the right balance and I am thankful for the Whole 30 for that. I won’t totally give up on it and I will continually find ways to eat healthy and muster the courage to choose healthy foods. I only hope that the weight won’t come back especially now that The Boyfriend, my partner in food crime, will come here in Dubai (finally!). But that’s another story. :)

With all that being said, I am finally closing this Whole 30 Log, and I hope yours went well or will go better than mine. Good luck and may the odds be ever in your favor!